MsMifaMendez

How to deal with it.

I wont stop I will just take it slow until I don’t feel it anymore then eventually let it loose.

Falling out of Love

I’m writing based on my past experience. It’s funny how we fall in love, with just a gazed we knew from that moment that we love that particular person. We can’t even count one single reason why we love  him. Everyday is a happy day. One fine day he never text, call or just didn’t even greet you good morning. Now we wonder what is wrong? He changed. We question but afraid to actually confront him. What do we do? (ME)I just keep it in myself act as normal as I could be. In one day I will tell it all in text because I can’t say it in person I might breakdown. Then I’ll feel relieve! OK I’ve said it all. I waited for a response….. nothing….  Coldness will be in the air then as that coldness goes through you are suddenly falling out of love. I really wonder if he really cares. Hindi ko maramdaman kung talagang mahalaga ako para sa kanya. Alam ko ang sitwasyon pero mararamdaman mo naman kung gaano ka kahalaga sa isang tao. Mahal ko siya hindi ko nga akalain eh. Parang kaya ko naman tiisin ang lahat pasensyosa kasi akong tao, ako yung tipo ng taong kahit pa gaano kahaba ang pila pipila ako. Pero sa ipinaparamdam niya sakin parang wala lang. Itetext lang nya ko pag gusto nya kong makita. Never ko naman narinig sa kanya na kamusta ka na kumain ka na ba na siya yung unang nagtext. Mararamdaman mo na lang ay bakit biglang ganon. Yun bang you want to hold on but wala na pala there’s nothing to hold on to. So tatanungin mo na ang sarili mo. Hindi kasi sapat na mahal mo siya kung ikaw rin lang ang magdadala nito. Ano ba yun parang ang desperate naman. Pero lage mo nmang maiisip na mhal ko siya kakayanin ko lahat. Ok lang sana kung kahit papano nararamdaman mong he cares.  Tama na sigurong mahalin mo siya in your own way. Ipagpray siya, mahalin siya ng tahimik. Hanggang kelan kaya ito dadalhin ako pa naman yung taong hirap magmove on. Totoo kasi ako magmahal akala nila malandi ako hindi naman. Sakin kasi bakit ko pa papatagalin kung gusto din naman kita. Life is to short to be Maria Clara. Mahal kita mahal na mahal kita! Ang sad lang kasi sa ginagawa mo or wala ka naman talgang gingawa nafafall out ako yun bang ano pang dahilan kung hindi mo naman rin ako mahal. Ayaw mo ng drama kasi you never want to hear me out. Ang gusto mo yung yun yun na yun. Hay Buhay never mo naman mababasa to eh. I wish you a happy life. 

Cast me a happy spell or give me an amnesia. I just want to stop crying.